darkness, emptiness

Hueco Mundo

i swam thru my dark side
seeking something i might hide
alight for my darkness
shadow for my loneliness
i couldnt find it
i guess it slipped down with the dawn
i might have to run
to catch the dream i never plan

the dream in the darkness
i cried in the silence
i bring my soul up,
and never looked down
but it never had a differences
cuz al i'll see is emptiness around

a mean of loneliness

Opened the window that covered my sight
the sun stare straightly at my blind spot
seeking for the answer
deep inside
the answer that i seek too
a question for the difference
why the sun is different from the thing around him?
why i feel im different?
why everyone push me away?
why we're alone in our pride?
why cant we find the answer?

i glanced at once to the people around
hear the voice but dont know what it means
dont understand what they're talking about
dont understand why they speak so loud
dont know when i can find a time to live my life

feel the air of my breath
feel the fear of the tree
fear to fall down to the ground
cuz the wind blown in brown
mixed by the mud
covered with the cloud

now the birds were singin through my breath
they flown around my head
suddenly the horn of the car screamed so loud
make me stood still, and wishing
wish there was a tree fell down to the driver
and the driver died
and the car crushed
and i enjoyed my peace, once again

a real place 4 me

in the middle of the english class

in the corner of the goddamn haze,

i stared at the calm blue sky

then i started to feel a lil lighter

but not so long,

before i realized that i'm in the middle of the crowd

and i feel so much all alone

i don't belong here

but i don' need their attention either,

cuz i live outside my brain, 

my life is otthere with my unreal friends

where i cant feel alone at all... 

Last deathwish of a hollow

through the blade that roared with me
through the cherry blossoms that blew inside of me
through the blade that caught me down to sea

i dreamed a better life
i dreamed a holy soul
i live without any hole
passed my days without sorrow
and in my dream
i wasn't a hollow

now let me say my last deathwish
to have a friend to cry me out when im vanish
to have a real sword for my cold blood
before my vein frozen immediately
and petrified beautifully


("Bleach" inspired me..^^)

Purnama

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kali ini dia pengen cerita

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menatap tajam bulan purnama malam itu

sehampa perasaannya

dia lihat bulan purnama

tak berteman ditinggal sang awan

awan egois yang tak berterimakasih

layaknya sang crap kid ditinggal sang kawan

sang purnama ditinggalkan awan

awan gelap yang meminta terangnya bulan purnama

kawan sesat yang hanya datang di saat tertentu

wheel of life

when u feel like your wheel of life stopped below you
turn on your soul into fire
and start to build your way up again
your wheel of life is just a wheel, it doesnt have feet to climb up
it doesn't have a heart to feel the proud of what it had done
doesn't have eyes to see a worse life outthere
doesn't have hands to reach what it wants
so just let it stop
but don't let your soulstops running
beat the time in a row
beat the crime without sorrow
keep on climbing till u reach your dreams
keep on pushin your wheel to make it move again...